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Name: leah
Birthday: 11/8/1988
Gender: Female
Interests: dance dance dance and food
Expertise: eat sleep dance and dance some more then go eat
Occupation: Legal
Industry: Textiles
Message: message me
Website: visit my website
Member Since:
11/22/2003
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| dancers
can relate when i say that no matter how much shit a director puts you
through, it is worth it to be in the lights, in front of an audience,
giving it your all onstage. i have never been a position to where it
wasn't even worth it to have this God given right of dancing. melissa
bramham took that away from me and i hate her for ruining it.
i
was in infinite motion for three years. yeah sure i wasn't the best
dancer. in fact i started off very crappy. i'll give it to her for
training me. but she has always picked on me. like that one time, i'm
sure some of you remember, when she called me slutty in front of some
jazz one students. or that one time earlier in the eukinetics season
where she yelled at me in front of everyone cause i was still talking
to mimi and kazoua. but this week alone she has gone above and beyond
to make me feel so demeaned. first she tells me privately that she
would pull me from a dance if it were her's. then the next day the
choreographer tells me the same thing, practically word for word.
coincidence? she always did want EVERYTHING to go her way. yesterday
i told her i just got a new job and i had a meeting i couldn't miss,
and she was just so ridiculously rude to me and sarcastically asked me
if i was gonna miss anything else. today i explained to everyone it
was my first day at a new job and melissa decides to yell "well we have
a show tomorrow" and slams the door. so me, at the brink of freaking
out, i start crying. thank you to everyone who was really supportive
by the way, i don't know what else i would of done if i literally had
no one by my side.
i feel that i've done all i could and it
wasn't enough since dancing is her life or whatever blah blah blah.
everytime i stepped onto that stage i didn't get the usual feeling of
relief, that adrenaline rush, and it wasn't fun. AT ALL. usually the
glory of being onstage is totally worth it and for the first time in my
entire life, it wasn't. i count the days till i'm finally done with
this stupid show. it is not worth it to be treated this way, not as a
dancer but as a human being. i'm better than that and i don't deserve
to be treated like this. i will not get on her level. so i'm done
with her. thanks for killing my spirit. there are plenty of other
places where i will be treated with fairness and dignity and respect.
and i will get back what she took away from me. | | |
| i've been ridiculously busy. i'm never at home. i'm usually at eukinetics, the place i would want to be the least... i'll explain why later. if i'm not there i'm at catch a fire, and if i'm not there i'm at work. gaaah i can't wait till it all dies down. ironically i want school to start simply because i know that i'll be a whole lot less busy than i am right now.
my plans to take 18 units a semester hasn't gone through this time cause there's pretty much nothing i can take right now. the psych classes and ge classes i wanna take either don't fit in my schedule or i just can't take em yet. so i'll just work some more and focus on catch a fire. i'm gonna apply at kings skate after my job at wackford is over. i'll basically be doing everything i'm doing at wackford, except it's for skate parties, and i'll be doing some of the stuff snack bar people do, and then programming. i need to save up some money since i'm going to the philippines this december! i'm so excited. we're going for three weeks this time, and apparently our schedule is pretty booked. i'm scared i'm gonna get hella homesick but hopefully i'll be busy enough to not think about it.
bramham is a bitch. i need to stop liking her and not liking her cause she's just the same person she always was underneath. first of all, she yelled at me in front of everyone. i was on the other side of the gym talking to mimi and kazoua cause she didn't need me yet, and i was gonna be dancing in the audience anyways for like 90 percent of the song. so instead of calling me over to say that we're moving on, she yells,
"leah! what are you doing over there?!"
so i say,
"i'm one of the people dancing in the audience."
-"well...*stupid pause* we're moving on!"
"alright."
-"okay where are you at?!"
"umm i came from the audience so just tell me where you want me."
gaaah so stupid right?! what's wrong with a simple "leah we're moving on now." so then at the end of her dance, she was putting us into formations for dawn's part which is next. so she moves everyone around me to the front including my partner, then she pushes me all the way to the back. nice ehh? just cause i'm talking to people she doesn't like? how immature of her. oh annnnddd she went waaaay into dawn's rehearsal that day only to say she was changing ALL of the choreography she taught us when she went over her time slot. how retarded. dawn didn't even wanna do eukinetics this year. mimi overheard her at core's show saying that she was basically dragged into it. it explains why her choreography last year was so much better than this year. this is gonna be her last season, and mine too. definitely.
on the bright side, CATCH a FIRE has our debut performance coming up!!! it's gonna be at xposed's show "public display" on september 8th at 3pm and 8pm. here's the flyer for more info. please come!!! i'm really excited and proud of what we have to show and i'd really appreciate the support! it's gonna be a ridiculously awesome show.
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| so funny story at work.
this little girl and her mom came in early for a party, so while the mom was checking in her daughter was standing next to me so i said hi and she was really cute and started smiling back, then she ran to her mom. im sure im spelling this wrong, but her name was amari.
then another girl and her mom come in for a different party. her name was emma and apparently she was the same age as amari. so emma and amari started playing together in the lobby area, then amari runs back to her mom and says,
"mom... i have a friend and shes four years old like me. then i have another friend *points at me* and shes brown."
amari comes up to me and gives me a penny, which was really adorable. me and all the pool party girls watched amari play with emma some more. then amari comes back up to me and says,
"can i have the penny back? i want to give it to her."
all of us bust out laughing while i give the penny back. amari then gives the penny to emma and they continue playing.
i am hurt :/
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| So if anyone is gonna go watch Transformers, I'LL GO WITH YOU!!!
my car and cell phone are so boring now
Ratatouille was cute
Rush Hour 3 August 10
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| my summer:
work friday-sunday
summer school monday-thursday
catch a fire mondays and fridays
eukinetics tuesday-thursday
how like totally awesome, seriously
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